I don't wanna live forever has become my favourite song, simply because I really don't want to live forever. I don't know if you, reading this, feel the same. But, I ,gosh!!. I do feel miserable and not at times, it is an everyday thing, yes, an everyday thing. I decide every morning, that today would be great that maybe I won't be wishing for a truck to collide in me, that maybe I can really enjoy that maybe this is what happiness is.
But, let me tell you, if you are not one who has not experienced this, then you might add a few years to your life. So, I am unhappy like really unhappy, don't ask for how, why and when. I am and despite trying out variety of things, this loneliness, numb feeling and confusion prevails. Yaa, go with your mid-school thinking and consider me a bitch or attention seeker or whatever.
I simply don't get it, why do people want to live more? How are they satisfied? How do they lie to themselves?
I ask death to approach me each day but it seems like I have committed some sin, so, maybe, I will have to live longer. Sigh.
I don't wanna live because I am no longer good at my studies, I was rejected by the only guy I had placed my heart upon, I don't wanna live because everything about me sucks. I have faced a lot of rejections from writing sites, I feel like the use of social media is only going to increase and so will the comparisons from who went where to what did they wear. Okay..Fine..I am fat and have specs and am tall and not flexible and dark too. My friends call me cute, kind people they are.
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